It's April 24th, 2015. My Leaving Cert is next year and I am am beginning to worry more and more every day. I haven't had a day in the past year that I haven't thought about my LC; anxiety about failing, not knowing what to do after school. At this stage in my educational journey I am expected to study after school every day for several hours. Of course, I don't, not enough time.



I have been struggling for a while to find the correct balance between studying, playing games and my animating. Although it may come back later to bite me, I have decided not to study my classes after school. I still do all my homework every day, but I don't spend extra time reading over notes or going ahead of my class. Being my age is stressful, responsibilities start to appear and it's frightening to say the least. I need my leasure time for playing games. They help me relax and calm down about the future. Then I also like to work on my animations, as it's a possible future career choice for me, I'm not quite sure yet. Next year will be the most difficult school year for me and I have decided to take a break from animating throughout the entirety of sixth year. Instead of animating and mindlessly browsing the internet looking up funny cat videos, I will be studying my butt off, that's the idea at least.

Roughly, the amount of time I have spent playing video-games this year compared to 2014 must have dropped by 700%. It bugs me, I still enjoy playing games but the freedom that I need to engage in them is gone. I was also planning on learning programming, to get a head start before I begin college, but that too is not possible because of time.

Let's just end it with this,
Time is a Bitch.